This has been the worst year ever!!!!

Who can lose weight with the way this year has gone?

I haven't even had time to get on here until today an its been months.  My little girl is almost 1. 

My dad died at the beginning of the month from smooth cell cancer.  We only found out about the cancer at the end of July.  He had been having x-rays every month since the by-pass surgery in Jan/Feb and there was never any indication of the cancer.  Then all of a sudden in July boom...stage 4....and on labor day he was gone.  I'm so glad we had their anniversary party at the beginning of July.

My father in law is still in the rehab center and they keep screwing up his care.  His leg still hasn't healed.

Work is still driving me crazy with demands.

For the first time ever...I'm not looking forward to the holidays coming up....

I've been eating everything is sight...I just can't help myself.....I got back on the scale and luckily I haven't gained that much....

Not great...but I'm ok with that

I was aweful this weekend with my eating.  A lot of things did not go as planned.  We suppose to go to my mom's for Easter and that didn't happen.  My little DD had ear infections in both ears, so I thought it best to keep her home.  So, we ate like crap all weekend, because I wasn't expecting us to be home. 

I'm not upset....I only lost .3 lbs, but considering how I ate that is just fine.  I'm looking at this as a long term thing, so if I go off the wagon...so what....I still want to be able to enjoy life and I can't enjoy life if I'm worry everyday about what is going in my mouth.....I do pretty darn good during the week and let the weekend take care of itself.....I'm doing my best to stay active, especially on the days I know I'm doing bad......

Another not so great week...

I been so busy with my anniversary on Monday and getting stuff ready for Easter, that it has not been the best of weeks.  I also havenot been getting enough sleep.  My little DD has stopped sleeping through the night.  I have noticed when I'm tired I eat badly.  I'm tired today, because DD was up every hour on the hour last night.  When I finally gave in and gave her a bottle, she barely ate.  They say it's hard to lose weight with out enough sleep and I'm beginning to see it. 

I have to finish packing tonight, because we are going to my Mom's on friday for Easter.  My Dad seems to be on the mend, but he doesn't sound like it on the phone(because they screwed up his vocal chords)...so I can't wait to see him.  Since he's not 100% yet we will still be staying in a hotel...eating out is also bad on the weight loss.

Life is all about challenges....to lose weight I must make better choices while dealing with these challenges.

Bad week...not so bad

I thought for sure I blew it this week, when I went out for lunch instead of just eating the salad I had taken to work.  So, when I stepped on the scale this morning I was happily surprised to see that I was down another 1.8 pounds....  I have given up my morning snack, because I'm now hardly hunger....  A couple of times this week I ate lunch out of habit and not hunger....but I also know I need to take in some calories and skipping meals is not good....

Traveling taking its toll

We have been on the road 2 weekends straight and it has taken its toll on my weight.  Spending so much time in the car has made my weight creep up a little.  My FIL will be in a rehab center for at least 8 weeks and my dad isn't allowed to drive, so we are going to continue to be on the road at least two weekends a month through July.  I have got to figure out how to eat better and get some exercise while traveling.  I have also have to figure out how to potty travel my oldest DD when were on the go so much and she is in daycare during the week.  This is the first weekend we are home in a month and we are on the road again the falling weekend.

I seem to be doing a little better this week.  I even managed to get a little bit of exercise in yesterday.  With two little ones at home there is so much to do that I can never seem to find the time for me.  DH coming home after work and doing nothing doesn't help matters.  He has more to lose than I do and he isn't even trying, which of course makes matters worse.

What a time we're having

It all started Jan. 26th.  My daughter was running a fever.  On Sunday we found out she has strep throat.  So, I stayed home with both kids on Monday and Tuesday.  On Tuesday, I found out that my dad was going to the doctor for some breathing problems he was having.  They ended up doing some tests and set him up for angoplasty on Wed.  Also, on Tuesday my Father in law fell down and shattered his ankle and leg, so they took him to the ER.  On Wed., I found out that my dad was going to have to have open heart surgery instead.  So, on Thursday, I loaded up the two girls and went to the hopsital (3 hours away).  We stayed there through Sunday.  Dad ended up having the 5 bypasses, the artery in his neck, and the artery in his heart done.  Mom called yesterday to let me know that he was finally getting out of the ICU and moved to a regular room.  Also on Wed., we found out that FIL had to have kidney dialysis before they could work on his leg.  They were finally able to do surgery on Friday.  he is also out of ICU, but will be in the hospital for a min of 4 weeks.  And now I have strep throat.  How can I even selfishly think of loosing weight with everything that is going on?

Beating the machine

It looks like beating the vending machine this week has paid off...I'm down over 3 pounds for the week...Yeah!.....I did stay as true to the diet as I could have.....I'm going to try and really reduce my carb intake this week....We have been eating too much junk for too long.....And I know it is what works for me....Before my oldest DD was born I lost 70 pounds on the low carb diet....so I know I can do it.....

One of the first fights.

I'm at work currently hungry.  I've already had my moring snack.  I naturally went to grab my change purse to go get something from the vending machines.  I fought with myself for a little while and then put my change purse away and grabbed a bottle of water instead.  Weightloss 1    Failure 0.  I won the first of many battles.

Stress and eating

Yesterday was another bad day.  My little one threw up more than normal....which stresses me out which makes me eat....I hope we get some answers when we take her to the specialist on the 28th....I'm all stressing over having to go back to work on Monday....not happy about that....but since I won't have access to all the food in my kitchen, maybe that will help....

Crappy last week

Last week I did awful...how can I get my self to stop eating.....I didn't even make much through the first day....I'm soooo mad at myself.....I just seem to eat and eat and eat.....I'm so not looking forward to going back to work next week......