So its tuesday already and I haven't graced the gym since last thursday. My weekend started friday night when we went to set up the hall and didn't get done until 9pm. I was hoping to hit the gym after but with the 40 min drive home I didn't have the time cause the gym closes at 10pm. Saturday didn't go as planned either. I slept in( this rarely happens) and then we had to get up and get to hair appointments and then I finished tidying the house before our guests arrived. we left for our Malanka celebration at 4pm and the good diet I was keeping was about to fall apart.

I did ok and thought to myself ok I can do this, been good so far! Well our table called next to get in line at the buffet table and would you know it only 2 salads( coleslaw-drenched in dressing, or ceasar- drenches in dressing) so ok veggies drenched in butter...I was thinking oh man I'm doomed and as I slowly went down the table I fell back into old habts. I love Ukrainian food and there wasn't one healthy dish on that table. I thought to myself......." its a celebration right, so why not just have fun and go with the flow for one more night...tomorrow will be better" so I had a plate of Ukrainian food and 3 coolers that night. The rest of the time I drank diet coke. I figured that the late lunch would have veggies but I was wrong again.... no one brought any so it was sandwiches and squares.......again not on my to eat list... but I found some with out and mayo or dressings and yes I had a square or it would have bugged me all night. On the plus side I did dance almost all night and I was sweating.

Sunday was ok but still not a on target day. We woke up around 9... not bad considering we didn't get home until 1am and we still had to get sleeping arrangement set up for our guests. well we got ready for the day and I made the traditionl breakfast in a dish as my sister calls it.( I call it heart attack in a dish...lol) I had a very small bowl and then we were out the door to take my mother-in-law home. Back to the big city we went and I was unprepared as usual and by 2pm the kids were screaming they were hungry and so we ended up going to the local mall for lunch. No subway or health food joints so it was Edo's they aren't bad at all though, steamed veggies, white rice, and grilled chicken and mushroom... I didn't have any added sauce. We left Edmonton around 4:30 and got home again around 5:30. we decided to run and pick up pizza's from wal-mart at 4.97 each it was a better than ordering out for pizza. on our way back in the van hubby and I kinda got into an argument. Well I had 4 pieces of pizza with out even thinking and I was pissed off with him. More hurt than anything. We did manage to talk about it a little bit before bed. The next morning my alarm didn't go off and to my surprise I got breakfast in bed at 8:30 am. He called in sick to work,He got the kids up and got them ready for school and then he drove them their and stopped off and picked up breakfast from McDonalds( he doesn't know how to cook). I was so surprised!! I got up and got ready and I only had 1 child in my day home and she arrived at at 9:30am. then my hubby sais to me that he wants to take me shopping for a treadmil. I was so shocked! what in the world has come over my hubby!!!! well by lunch I had the answer. He has been so cranky since I started this whole thing and finally I knew why. He is afraid I will leave him again! The last time I lost 60 lbs I kinda found interest in someone else( younger, more money, way more romantc....BUT he wasn't my hubby) it only lasted 3 months and then I was back with my best friens and soul mate. I got over it quickly but he didn't. It doesn't matter how much we talk about it he just can't seem to get over it. The guy has moved to another city but my hubby still can't get over it! Anyways it's been almost 2 years and I am not going to make that mistake again. Hubby is scared about it but I am not going to let it get into my way. I am going to continue going to the gym in the evenings, swimming 2 time a week and I will use the treadmil in the mornings along with my eliptical machine and the biggest loser workouts vidoes. Moving is losing!!!!! Yes hubby and I had a good cry and we talked about the issue at hand for over an hour . He is feeling better and so am I! So the treadmil I am going to get on the weekend, cause they are out of stock here where I live, but they have some in the city so that were we are headed friday night! I am sooooooo excited. Through these last few days I only gained 2lbs on Friday morning I was 265...down 10lbs but this morning I was 267 so still not bad. Tonight I have aqua aerobics and I might even hit the gym first.

Have a good day and don't give up... I'm not and I will get there!!!!

Well the one good thing about winter is the snow! In the last 24 hours I have shovelled our long walk 5 times! A great arm workout and I was sweating each time I did it. Thats means I burned cals...and burned cals means shedding fat..and shedding fat mean I'm happy. So let it snow!

 

I had a moment last night and I know everyone has them. I was 7:30 pm and I was sitting on the couch with my kids watching TV and I could have stayed there all night cozy under a blanket. well my hubby asked me if I am going to the gym and I said not sure...then the little devil on my shoulder staying debaiting with the angel on my other shoulder. the devil was winning the war and staying in cozy on the couch with a plait of nachoes sounded right up my ally. well after about 15 min he asked me again and I said no I was going to stay in the warm house and cuddle up with him and eat nachoes. He got upset with me and said " fine but then I don't want to hear about the gym any more or this diet your on!!" I was pissed, couldn't I have one night off? counldn't I just be lazy for one night?....... the answer is no, he was right cause one night just turns into 2 nights and then a week and then I've fallen off the ban wagon. I was furrious and got up and grabbed my stuff and flew out the door in a rage of anger! By the time I got to the gym I knew he was right! I was so glad he pushed me and I ended up by doing a whole hour on my fav. crosstrainer whom I haven't  been on in 2 years. Flet great to be back and even better to have been able to do an hour. The only down fall was that my iPod died on the 3rd song. I guess I should have been more prepared right....lol.

 

Tonight is Aqua Aerobics and before I go I am going to watch The Biggest Loser to get pumped! I am so excited! I haven't been to Aqua Aerobics in 2 years!  I am pumped!!!! Eating great and enough cals so I hope to see some results soon:)

 

Have a great day everyone! Stay focused on your goals! WE CAN DO IT!!!!!