SAINTS, SUPERBOWL CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!

It was an amazing game!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited and we yelled a lot!

Good thing about tonight, we didn't have party food, just chips. The bad thing, I ate too many of them.


I'm so excited! And I didn't even like football until few weeks ago!

I like my stability ball

Even though I know I shouldn't weigh every day, I've been doing it because it keeps me on track, or sort of. I weighed today and on Tuesday and my weight is down a little bit, to 167.2, oh yes!

That feels good as my weight has been going up every week, so I'm happy with this pound loss. My eating is still not perfect, I'm not tracking as I should and I'm eating more portions than I should, but at least I'm working out. I did the Shred DVD plus the Firm's stability ball DVD. It was fun! The Shred is getting a tiny bit easier, I still can't do all the push ups, or all the lunges, but I won't level up until I can do all of them, without taking a break. That's the whole purpose of this dvd, work out without breaks so you burn more fat, build muscle, and have results faster.

The Firm's dvd is not that easy either but I love it. I really like to work with the ball, it's challenging and I love to do planks on it. Fun, fun! So it's been two days in a row working these DVDs, and I'm planning to do them again this weekend.

So I guess the exercise part is good for now, what I need to start taking control of is my eating tracking, portion control. I know I have to do it! How do you do it and control yourself? I know I asked this before, and I know is something I must do.

Have a nice day!

Same as last week

Up again....

Day 3.

I got up this morning and did the Shred work out. I didn't do it yesterday because I was so sore and couldn't even walk. Today it hurts a little bit, but is getting better. The work out is still a little tough, but I think is getting a tiny bit easier. I just realized though, that the work out lasts only 20 minutes. I don't know if that's enough for me as I used to do hour and a half before at the gym, and I didn't lose too much weight. So I might need to add another kind of exercise, maybe more cardio, but since I'm so out of shape, those 20 minutes are somehow hard.

I weighed this morning and it was 170.6. It bothers me as I see the numbers going up everyday, but I know it might because TOM is here. I hope that by tomorrow or after tomorrow the numbers go down. I can't believe I'm almost 171, sometimes I get in such a bad mood because I feel so big... I know I'm not that big, but I want to feel comfortable, and I feel a little heavy, I have a muffin top and my clothes don't fit as good as before, they don't fit good! I can see my stomach, my muffin top, my arms are bigger... not good.

But that's why I'm trying to work on it, I want to feel good, look good and be healthy. I want to stop this yo-yo thing once and for all. I want to learn to control my eating, to control my portions.

That's all for now, I hope to work out tomorrow too, let's see how it goes.
Have a nice day!

So sore

Day 2.

I did the Shred video again... and I can't walk!! My legs are so sore, oh my gosh, I walk like a robot. I wanted to do it twice but I couldn't. I know is going to get better, but for now I have to be in better shape, and I know I will get to that point.

When you just look at the exercises they don't look that difficult, but doing them, gosh, they sort of kill me! It feels good though, I'm happy I did it yesterday.

T saw me doing it and I asked him if he will do it with me some day, he said yeah... I hope that happen sooner than later :)

I was planning to skip it for today, but if I do it my body won't get used to the routine. So even if it hurts horribly I'll do it. I have to. We went to eat Thai food last night, and I'm .2 up. Ugh!!! But oh well, I know is salt, and my TOM is coming this weekend, but I hate seeing the scale giving me bigger numbers, I want to be 150 already.

That's all for now, I will update after I finish my DVD.
Have a nice day!

Up up....

This morning I stepped on the scale and it read 168.6 lbs. And my BMI is not normal anymore, I'm OVERWEIGHT. Not good. I've been weighing every day as that's the only way I can control myself. Yesterday and before yesterday was 166.4 and on Friday was 167.6... sigh, these fluctuations are a little annoying.

As I said before, last year, at this time, I was like 10 pounds lighter. And it's all my fault, I'm not working out, I'm not writing what I eat. I start working out for a couple of days and then I don't do it anymore. It's so hard to work out at home. I do like it though once I'm doing it, but I definitely miss having a gym membership. Hope better times come soon so I can join one.

For Christmas T gave me two Jillians DVDs, The Shred and something about your trouble zones, forgot the title. I told him that I wanted those for Christmas and he gave it to me :).

So I let the holidays pass and I did today the first day, first level, of course, of the Shred. Oh my gosh!!!! I saw it first, after Christmas, I wanted to see how difficult or easy it was, and it didn't look that tough. Well, maybe a year ago or two years ago I would've done the first level easily, but today wasn't easy!!! It was tough. Of course I cheated, I had to stop at times, like when doing the lunges because my feet are weird and make me lose balance. I could do the cardio, gasping for air and panting, but I did it :D, so that's very good.

Tomorrow I will try it again... I don't know if I miss Jillian's instructions but are you supposed to do it for 30 days? Like your body is supposed to change in 30 days?

I want to lose 3 pounds every month, 4 will be ideal. I don't want to be too hard with me because I know if I don't do it I get very disappointed and then I don't want to do anything. If I lost 40 something pounds before I can lose like 20 more right????

Another thing that I need to work is on my eating. I know, I've been saying this since I started this blog. It's hard!!!!!!!! I eat too much, I try to eat healthy but too much of healthy stuff and no portion control leads also to weight gain if you don't work out.... I wonder, too much veggies is bad? I so crave veggies sometimes, I saute bak choy and napa cabagge with shiitake mushrooms. and seeweed thing, the other day and it was so good! I ate that with brown rice (like 2 cups so no wonder why I put on weight) and my chopsticks, so yummy!

Yeah, I'm rambling now... off to tend to other things.

I'll see how is my weight tomorrow! Hope it goes down a little bit....

I hope it lasts...

I hope I'm back to my working out mode and hope it lasts. I've exercised 3 times this week, one at home, doing a DVD work out from the Firm, and twice at a little gym. I don't have a membership to a gym and I really want one and need it. But in the meantime working out at home can do it.

The DVD was a stability ball work out, and it was tough! Well, I'm very out of shape so for me it was tough. Specially those moves where you sort of have to kneel on the ball, I kept falling from it and I could have break my neck because the coffee table was just there, hehe .

It feels good though, I'm finally moving my butt, and trying to do something about my weight. I still haven't stepped on a scale, I'm very very scared. I don't want to see a 170 or a 168 as I was at the doctor's office last month... ugh... I was 157 last year in this month. But ok, I won't keep torturing me thinking about that, my weight now is what it is and I need to work on this.

My eating is not as good. I've been snacking peanuts which wouldn't be bad if I had just a handful of them, but no, I had a lot! and more nuts, ugh I'm really a piggy, and I ate Indian food last night, and it was sooo good. I had a chicken tikka, I think that's not too bad, but there was bread, and samosas, and a fried cheese thing that was amazing! So that's why today I went to a little gym and did 30 mins. treadmill, 20 elliptical, 10 the norditrak (I think that's how is called?), and some lunges, and weights for my legs.

Today T and I are going to run a bunch of errands, I know late start, and this weekend will be very busy, so I hope my eating will be decent and I know for sure that I won't get work outs.

Have a nice weekend!

I want to be healthy!

Almost a month later I'm back posting here. I sort of started working out again last week, but more seriously this week. Today is my third day working out, yay for me! But it's been tough!

It's crazy how one can lose all her strength by not working out. I feel rusted, very heavy, it was very hard to finish 45 minutes of cardio yesterday, and today 50 minutes. I used to work out for 2 hours with no problems before... ugh.

I saw pictures from 2 or 3 years ago, and I really looked leaned and to my surprise skinny. And I thought I was fat at that time, I was 153 -155 lbs. I want to go back to that weight first, and then lose some more.

T says I have a really bad idea of how I look like, because in my head I'm still 200 something pounds as I was when I was a teenager. I need to work on that, how do you do that?

But anyway, I started working out, and that's very good. I don't want to have health problems, my knees hurt sometimes and that scares me. I want to be healthy by the time I get pregnant... (don't know when yet although I'm getting older!!! )

I also started counting points, which I hate, hate the measuring but I won't lose weight if I don't control portions... wish there was an easier way to measure your food!!!!

That's all. I'll weigh in soon... when I feel a little lighter, I feel so bloated!

Bye bye for now!

 

Time to Get Serious

Hey!
I think I'm back but this time really back. I hope.

I weighed this morning in the house and my weight was 163.8 lbs. I knew it was this. Went to the doctor right after, and the scale said 168!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh. I knew it was going to be high but I was hoping to be not too close to 170.

I know why my weight is so high, no ones fault just mine. I'm not working out, I'm not writing down what I'm eating, although I sort of always watch what I eat, but that's not how you lose weight and how I can get to my goal weight. It's frustrating though. I feel my clothes don't look as good as before, I can see my muffin top, my arms getting bigger and fluffier, because I'm not moving as I used to do. I used to walk A LOT!!!! on campus, and went to the gym.

There is no excuse though, I'm not working out just because I'm plain lazy. Ugh. I have a step, I have videos and I have 10lbs. dumbells, a ball, so I have no excuse. . I feel like I'm in a vicious cycle (is that word correct?) because I'm having some stress, and it's affecting my mood, my self steem, and because it's affecting my mood I don't feel like doing anything, so I just sit in my butt and do nothing. I know though, that if I work out I will feel 100 times better, but do I do it? No, I feel unmotivated, discouraged. Not because of my weight, but because the way I feel about this stress. Sigh... one of the things that is stressing me out is the job situation. I can't even talk about this because it's upsetting and makes me want to cry. It's very sad and it hurts my pride, and it so affects my self steem, that one can have like 2 degrees for what? I better stop talking about this but I feel lost.

Anyway... I had oral surgery last week, and I'm healing. Once I'm healed 100% I will start my work outs, which I'm thinking will be by the end of this week. Enough of this. I can sort of manage this stress by working out, so here I go.

Have a nice day!

Ah!!!!!

As of today my weight is, 163.6lbs. It sort of wanted to go to 165 but it came down... aw, I want to be 133 or 135! Need to work on it!!! Makes me so mad, I'm mad at myself.

Do you think stress just bloats you or makes you put on weight and gain fat? Well, I guess you have to eat and not working out.

I need help and some motivation...