I have so much to lose

Yes I do have so much to lose if i give up, like my sanity . I can and i will do it. i've been doing a mantra today. Went to bed last night starving and read a book when i woke up this morning i had a headache and felt sick. I So wanted a duvet day and i did go back to bed for a while got up had a bath very hot bath it was lovely except the steam made my hair curl and i was too late to get the hets iron out. I  then forced a shake down. Rushed off to work LATE as usual and forgot to take a pack with me. Damn i was so hunry at 3.

Resulting in me wanting to eat everything in sight when i got home I've got to admit i had a few picks of salmon and left the kitchen with my thai chilli soup( it wasn't bad ). Tis very hard going but ive been in a good mood and i know my husband is expecting my rollercoaster moods but i still wasn't moody  even when i felt like S**T this morning. Although my favourite colleague got on my tits  today as she so very  fake and always has to try an compete against me to get in favour with our boss and clients???

Got my first pop in tomorrow and im looking forward to seeing how the others have done. I cant wait for the hunger to go but the ketosis breath will not be welcome.