My 2nd week - Good versus Bad the fight inside my head
I have found the past week a struggle regarding food and my mood. which is my tangled emotions of guilt and beating myself up. I'm snappy as hell which made my laid back partner really letting me know how i am effecting the household. He told me my diet doensn't agree with me as im too moody! Maybe, but ever since i have been given a date to start Lighter life i have enabled the voice inside my head win and talk me into giving up on my current plan. because its better to start on the 24th. The same voice that when i lose weight tries hard and succeds to get me to fall off the wagon at times i wonder if it's because lifes less threatening when im cocooned inside my padded body. Why do i have such a destructive 2nd being inside me a fight inside my head good versus bad...
So i have beating myself up again and i daren't discuss it with my partner as i feel weak and silly. He is an ideal weight very fit and toned! He can stop when he's hungry and he can even eat less when he's not training. Again i often ask him why he's with me.
Yes the battle with me is inside my head and until i re write and re work 'the rule' i can't jump off this merry go round that is my life. Why am i such a head doer?